Well today has been a strange day. Woke up crying. Had a pep talk from my parents which made me motivated. Got a few things done and felt really pleased with myself. Carried on with my job application. Hit a snag on the maths test part of it, realised I’m incredibly unintelligent, now feel like I’m a useless piece of fucking shit who’s never going to get a job. Not a bad variety of feelings for one day really.